Kit Eginton

INTRODUCTION: AN EXEGETIC CHAIN

My Own Sanity Within That Madness

It's like your body is imprisoning you. Do you know the movie The Diving Bell and the Butterfly? It’s about being immobile, and just stuck there. This guy gets paralyzed from the spine downward and he can only move his eyes—it’s called “locked-in syndrome”—and he writes a whole memoir. When you’re defined by apartheid, you’re visibly what you are, and you can’t be anything other than what defines you.

The Weight of Breasts That Aren’t There

The demands of the trans community have advanced from medical transition, to depathologization, to the institutional recognition of the possibility of trans happiness. But the question of what dysphoria actually is—a market preference, a neuroanatomical difference, an ontological mismatch between soul and body, a structure of desire—still lacks a satisfying answer.

A New Year’s Postscript

The first thing to remember when you find yourself taking a blackpill is that if it didn’t feel true, it wouldn’t have convinced enough people for you to encounter it.

Fruitful

Four conversations with trans people about whether they want to have children: Pakistani social services, Aleksandra Kollontai, Ursula Le Guin, non-nuclear families, hysterectomies, RyanAir, estrogen, lactation, Paris is Burning, Lee Edelman, breeders, communes, and utopia.

On Wanting Magic to be Real

Seanan McGuire and Andrea Long Chu daisy duke it out in an epic battle for the soul of transness and/or young adult fantasy fiction.

A Dull, Distinct Light

The walls were the color of liver and the space was full of old humans just parked at odd angles in various conveyances – some in wheelchairs, and some on half-reclining stretchers. It was a tiny woman lying on one of those stretcher things, wrapped up in cheap blankets and oxygen tubing, who grabbed my hand and asked me where she was, which I told her. She didn’t let go.

TRANS FAT

definitely not ethnography - the mandible - teal goop - locked in eternal struggle - I'm furious about it - "daemonic" for "feminizing" - I am a deep dish pizza - I haven't fracked it enough - lost weight severely, gained weight severely - tragicomedy - tiny duck - waif

Under New Management: A letter to the readership

hypocrite reader under new management - on hiatus till May 1st - new editor writes letter to readership - big plans - gratitude - secret agendas - &c.